77. Y - Yet

I'm writing this piece, unsure whether you'd wake up to read
With words I'm bringing you to life
But in words alone that might be
My ears await to hear you
My fears say you won't stay
This silence is eating me
While I can even hear the hair on my hand talk aloud
Have you seen your support system get destroyed
Yes today I'm witnessing it erode layer by layer
I can't stop it, I Can't watch you suffer
I'm stuck between my selfishness to want you, dad
While not wanting you to decay with everyday
I don't want this night to pass
I don't want the sun to rise
Let me calm myself in the thought that you're alive on that bed
In between I'll just peep in
Leave admiring you, quiet and unsaid

Yet in a while we'll break to the dawn
Yet again I'll witness this urge to hug you and cry
I will yearn for your love,
I would pray to save you somehow
I will sobe watching you suffer,
Yet.....
I might not see a light of hope
And still would be standing on this rope
Maybe, this time its a thread
On one side is your calling
On the other is a painful crawling (to death)
Yet...