57. E - Euthanasia

Externally no one could see
Internally I couldn't be
I didn't have visible scars
I could be seen in and outside bars
Whenever i spoke you called me mad
I'm suffocating, shouting within
But You're blinded to me,
Coz I don't show enough sad
I want you to hear, i want someone near
Stuck in a pit,
In this race i feel like a misfit
I'm scribbling pages till they're torn
I'm awake and Alive, still I mourn
Like small insects this is creeping in me
Bit by bit consuming me,
I have money, i have people
But at this point it all seems too feeble
Scratching my nails on the walls
I decide to take a call
Rather than dying cell by cell
As I jumped from this building
I escaped from a living hell..